Here is the before and after segment from the alleged sex scene that I posted yesterday. I will highlight the segment you read before in red so it stands out. For those readers just now joining the conversation, I had previously posted the paragraph that alluded to the sex as the identified scene, because that was the place that mentioned what actually happened. Here is the portion of the chapter leading up to the "act" and then the aftermath. I am not posting the whole scene because that would give some spoilers away, like why he is crying to begin with. If you want to find out you'll have to buy the e-book, hehehe. I personally think that this partial scene is more about emotional intimacy than actual sexual activity, but maybe you'll disagree with me? Go ahead and comment away....
She gasped and pulled him into her arms.
Josiah allowed her to hold him, his heart numb from hours of crying. He didn't want to start sobbing again. Not with Tara there. It was too overwhelming to talk about. He just wanted her to hold him forever and never let go.
His shoulders shook as she squeezed him tighter. How he loved this woman.
"Don't say anything. Just let me hold you, okay?" Her warm breath on his ear made him shiver with delight. He wanted nothing more than to escape the pain and make love to Tara. In so many ways she had helped to heal his hurting soul back in high school. He wanted to feel that close to her again.
She seemed to sense his need and gazed at him with loving eyes. "I'm here for you."
Not trusting his voice to remain steady, he nodded and held her against him. She felt so good, so perfect. And her pheromones were making his head swim. "Tara..." Tipping her face up with his finger, he gazed down at her and offered her a tentative kiss. "I need you so much right now. I--"
She cut him off with a heady kiss. He released his pain as he filled his nostrils with her unique fragrance, and he reveled in the feel of her lips on his. His heavily guarded wall crumbled until he was wide open to whatever happened next.
While Tara didn't say anything, he knew the reason she had come to his house was now completely forgotten. He wanted her to know how much he appreciated her comfort.
"I love you so much, Tee."
She blinked back tears. "I love you, too."
Boundaries forgotten, they found comfort in each others arms, and by the time they finished he was completely exhausted. While their bodies were satiated, the ache that had propelled him toward physical intimacy remained. Only now, there was an added layer of guilt.
He'd blown it big time by letting her inside his house. He should've known better than to kiss her when he was in such a weakened state. It was his fault, and he hated himself for it.
One glance into her eyes told him she understood completely. How quickly the fires of passion had faded, now that they were rational and had cooled down enough to think about their actions. They both knew that their behavior didn't honor God, nor did his lack of restraint show any respect for Tara. In fact, it only made it that much harder for him to resist future encounters.
Now that he'd had a taste of Tara again, his body would crave more.
"I... I need to go." She scrambled to put her clothes back on, and before he could even apologize, she had fully dressed and slipped out the front door and into the night.
The gaping hole in his heart broke open and bled... until he was completely covered with the stain from his sin. Josiah closed his eyes, and wept.
Me again... I don't know about you, but I still don't think that is a sex scene that shows sex in a positive light or would make a young person want to run out and do it. I just see it as a realistic portrayal of regrets and guilt after making a poor choice in the heat of the moment. But maybe I'm off base here. Anyone?